Five Steps Back

Yesterday was a tough day.

Not that I don't miss Dad every day. But yesterday was the most difficult day I had in a while.

Mom and I were talking about informing people about what happened to Dad.  

And right there I balled my eyes out.  Because I miss him.  Because I don't get how people don't know.  And because I'm actually terrified to run into those people.

Next week is my birthday and I don't want to face it.  I will no longer be the age that Dad last knew me.  It's mind boogling to me.

The hard days take me back a few days.  I just don't want to be the strong one anymore.

Throwback Thursday

It's no secret that I am a fan of great music.  Yesterday I was reminded of some old favorites while Brenda's Pandora was playing at work.  

I mean who wasn't a fan of Fall Out Boy back in the day?  Becoming a fan of Fall Out Boy opened up a whole new music world for me at that time.  Yes, I'm nostalgic for this great music time in my life.  And yes, yesterday morning as I was working, I sang under my breathe to every FOB song that came on.

In honor of Throwback Thursday, I present one of my favorite songs from high school/college days. 

2014 Thus Far....

First blog post of the year 2014 and it's going to be a quick little round up.

Mom, Chris and I went to Miami for a vacation from winter, reality, and to spend as much time on the beach.

Flash forward to the polar vortex and the first two days were "cold" for Floridians in the fifties, but wonderful to us who were coming from temperatures in the teens.

Unfortunately for me, the days of relaxation wore off within a few hours of working.  

This vacation was a roller coaster of emotions.  I was standing by the ocean in January and wished so much that my dad was there.  But we got clues that he was there, every part of the vacation, and I couldn't be more blessed for those signs from heaven.

I promise to update this more in the year 2014.  More pictures, more posts and plenty more memories.