Sweet Nothing....

Christopher would be proud.  As I'm getting ready to start a wonderful weekend, I'm blasting some Calvin Harris.  I wish that I could go see him sometime in my life.

Happy weekend everyone!

 

Side Effects--Nothing But Trouble

Medication side effects. 

Boy, are they sometimes a pain in the ass.

Over the past few years, I have had some side effects to the many medications I have been on.  I've put on weight.  My face has broken out like a teenager.  I have had bleeding issues.  Bruises magically appeared after barely hitting an object. I've been tired and I've been wide awake.

But most recently, I have been itchy.  And while some may think this isn't an awful side effect, it is top ten most uncomfortable thing I have had to go through.

Seriously, it's that bad.

Last night, Dad and I tried to figure out what makes the itching start.  It's not like I have dry skin, or that I haven't been putting lotion on to try to prevent it.  Instead the itching continues, to a point where I let out an aggravated sigh, wishing it would just stop.  I'm sure most people I'm with don't notice it unless I complain about wanting to crawl out of my skin. 

But every time my nails go to scratch my arm, I realize with annoyance that it's starting again.

Rarely do I go online to see what my different symptoms may mean.  Last time I did that, I sat in my room one morning, crying, because I thought I would need surgery to get good old Henry out. For this reason alone, I don't like to diagnosis myself from the internet.  The itching has gotten SO annoying, that I broke my own rules and turned to good old Google to find out the connection of my current problem and Remicade.

And I found out I wasn't the weird one.  This wonderful side effect has happened to other people, with no explanation of why it occurred, or how to stop it from coming.  Instead, there were people's own remedies, and their accounts of mystifying the doctor.

To me, this is a blessing.

When I was explaining to Dr. I last week about my itching, he had never heard of such side effects and that left me feeling defeated.  Once again I was the only weird one with this problem.  But thanks to Google, I found others just like me.  And that's refreshing.

Known side effects suck.  Unknown side effects are even worse, and it's nice to know that I'm not the only one experience the problem of non stop itching

Shake Down You Make Me Break.....

The storm is ragin outside and it makes me think of this song.  With the results that we have been having the past year, I always get scared when the storms become so strong, like it is today.  This wind is crazy,and the rain is coming down sideways.

Luckily I haven't gone totally crazy with nerves because I absolutely hate storms.  And it's makes me think of this beautiful Something Corporate song when the storm is going crazy outside.

Where Were You When the World Stopped Turning....

Yesterday was an important day in America's history, but also for some of my dearest people in my life. September 11th 2001 changed the world that we live in completely.  It showed Americans that even in during one of the biggest tragedies that ever happened to our country, we can come together as a group of people, and help each other mourn and grow and stand tall and heal with one another.

Thousands of lives were lost on that day, caused by an act of hate.  Millions of people were affected, from those who lost family or friends in those towers, or on those planes.  To the men and women who went to defend our nation during a time of crisis in our military.  To those military families who have supported our troops every day that they are away.

There is a man from Milford who had the biggest smile in the world.  His name is Michael and he is cherished by some of the people that I love the most in my life.  Michael worked in one of the towers on that fateful day and it's my understanding that our world lost such a bright star.

Yesterday, when I was at the memorial service in West Haven, I couldn't help but think of my friends who lost Michael 11 years ago.  Michael is a man whose legacy lives on every time a story is told by Kate or Emily or Brad.  Every time we see a lady bug outside.  I got emotional yesterday listening to the speeches and remembering how my friends hurt every day because they miss Michael so much.

And I grew extremely proud of my country.  For a country that pulled together in the darkest time and built itself back up.  For a country that showed that we were stronger then even we expected.  I cried watching that flag go up, and hearing songs for America. Because we are America. Home of the brave.

Happy Monday Ya'll

I love this quote.  
I love Winnie the Pooh.  
And I love that this can give all the people I care about faith that they are amazing and will do great things in this world.

Throwback Thursday: Cause She Will Be Loved

While listening to the radio recently, I have been hearing some throw back love songs that I have absolutely loved.  At some point, the song would get over played, I'd get annoyed, the song would disappear, and then when I hear it again, I would fall back in love with it.  These are just some gems that you all can enjoy on this wonderful Thursday.

 
Maroon 5 has always been a favorite of mine, long before Mr. Adam Levine was on the voice and releasing "Songs About Jane".  And I have always, always loved this song.  

Julia and I got so sick of this song sophomore year of college that we made up our own lyrics. So whenever I hear this song, I think of her and when we would just lie around the dorm with music cranked up on high.

I think it's a dream for every girl in this world to have a song released that is about them.  If I remember from when this song was released, it's about a girl he didn't even date Deliah.  I mean really, who wouldn't want to inspire such a beautiful song from a guy they didn't even end up date.

"Collide" will always hold a special place in my heart.  Not only did I see Howie Day perform this live during senior year of high school, but I also had a dear friend dedicate this to me for my 18th birthday because he knew it was my favorite.  I have said before that I'm a sucker for a guy who knows how to play guitar.....and this is one of the reasons.

While they may not be the most romantic love songs, I have been hearing them on the radio recently and I just couldn't help but smile whenever I hear them.

Seeing as I'm finally off of the steriods, I am finally seeing the side effects to the Remicade treatments.

Number one?  I feel like I'm breaking out all over the place and that I look really silly with it.  Plus, I'm tired all the time and can't stay awake if I ever lie down for any length of time.  Which is not fun because I do not like being tired.

I'm hoping this goes away ASAP because I'm really over it.