Thursday, February 28, 2013

Love Letters

For the past few months, I have become a fan of love letters.

It's simple really.  I write letters to my friends whenever they are going through a rough patch, or when they accomplish something that I think they should be proud of.  I write them hand written letters to know that someone cares enough to take a moment of their day to send well wishes there way.

If I could, I would write to every single person who has read this blog, or has sent a prayer or well wish throughout this whole journey to my family and I.

As I sit here thinking about the history of love letters, I long for the days where a guy would send a letter to his girl back at home to let her know how much he cared.  I wish for the day that you sent your girlfriends letters filled with adventures of those summer days that you met the guy of your dreams, or you were able to let your hair down and have fun.  Or the notes that were passed in secret during classes in middle school to your friends to pass the boring days.

Love letters.  They can really change a person's whole day.  Dare you to try it and not get a response that it brightened someone's day.

Friday, February 22, 2013

I've made an important decision folks. 

I'm going gluten free.

And I'm making a promise to try and be positive about this whole thing and not wallow on all the food that I will no longer be able to eat.  Or the places I will be able to eat. 

Actually, let's have a moment of silence about this sad turn of events.

Unlike most people who have been going gluten free or trying the whole "clean" eating thing, I'm not doing this to lose weight.  Yes, it is a life style choice, but if I had a choice, I would continue to eat all the crappy food that I love.

Instead it's a life style choice to hopefully start a road to recovery.  While my doctor may not say there is actual medical proof of a diet change working, I'm going to cross my fingers and toes that my inflammation will go down and I won't be so miserable all the time.

Which leads me to researching/going on Pinterest to find recipes for this new type of living I'm going to be doing.

Let the adventure begin.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

2013, You've Been a Treat....

I'm going to let you in on a small secret.

I have had the pleasure of 2013 welcoming me in with a wonderful little flare up that has gotten worse instead of getting better.  It all began mid-January.  I started to not feel well and I got in touch with my doctor as soon as this started. We increased the steroids, and tried to come up with a plan because instead of getting better, the flare up was getting worse.

Flash forward to last week.  Basically I was miserable.  I would go into work, come home and try to eat the best that I could, and then go to sleep because I was completely exhausted.  I have basically gone into hiding because I don't feel well.

I had another test done last Wednesday and was told that the inflammation hasn't gone down at all, which confused my doctor because I'm on a bunch of medications and shouldn't be so inflammed.  So he upped the steroids and said I would be hearing from another doctor who will hopefully be able to figure out what's my problem.  Mind you, I am piecing this conversation together because the good doctor thought it was a great idea to have this conversation when I was coming out of my drugged up state.  Wonderful.

This past Friday, I talked to my doctor a little more.  I guess my whole situation has him thinking about why I'm going through this and what the game plan should be.  This is where it gets a bit scary and where I'm not such a strong little girl.

He said that I've gone through most of the medications that people who have colitis use.  Either I can try some new medications that this other doctor will suggest, or I can try my shots every week now.  I have wanted to try the shots every week now, but I need to actually get approved for the prescription through the insurance company.  Wonderful.  But he also mentioned surgery and removing my colon.  That made me have a minor breakdown in the middle of the living room.

No surgery for this girl in the forseeable future.

Dad said that surgery will be my last option, but he has begun doing his own research on how to make me feel better.  I think I'm going to start a different diet to hopefully curb these flare ups.  I need to research some more about the diet before I make an official decision but I'm almost 99% sure I will be changing up my diet.

This is what has been happening to me these past few weeks.  I am trying to be as stress free as I can because I know that's not good for my colitis.  I have also been trying to avoid certain foods that will make me hurt.  I've been having a good few days though, knock on wood.