I Feel So Close to You Right Now

Two days at work down. Two more to end the week to go.

While some might not agree with me getting back to work, it's good for my soul.  Everyone at work is so understanding for everything I have been going through, and they are all so helpful.  I have a system now.  I sit on a chair and type up prescriptions with my leg sitting on top of one of the recycling bins under the desk/table/counter thing.  I don't really move from there, instead ask for help from my coworkers when I need to check if we have something, or have to give the script to the pharmacist.  

Tenzin and Holly check up on me on a regular basis; actually everyone does.  I have people making sure I'm doing well throughout the day, and people who look at me like I'm crazy when I want to get up and do something like walk to the other side of the pharmacy.

I won't lie to you; after a day at the "office" I feel completely drained.  It's tiring sitting on a chair all day just punching in data.  I have turned to Tenzin multiple times and said how I'm ready to fall asleep throughout the day.  But it's soooo much better then sitting in my bed feeling sorry for myself.

Today was a day off and I didn't really do much other then listen to Taylor's new CD and fall in love with it.  Even though she gets a lot of backlash for constantly writing about her failed relationships, I love how she somehow puts my feelings in words with her songs.  Seriously, it's sometimes really creepy.

Tonight is the LAST night of those devil shots.  Or at least I'm crossing my fingers and toes that it is because my stomach is starting to look like a smiley face with the little bruises.  

Reporting Live....

Right now I am in a new room.  With the view outside of the window being the old building I was just transferred from.  I realize that those sentences do not make sense but I could not find the irony of staring at the building I just was in for three days.

In this new room, I have a roommate who has a ton of visitors at the current time.  I have mom, dad and Chris crowded by the wall, I feel kind of bad about it.  Chris is sitting on the floor trying to get comfortable but he's so big that it's difficult for him to fit in this area.  I don't know how I will be able to do this whole roommate thing, but I'm hoping I will be out of here by tomorrow night.

Dr. I is going to do the procedure tomorrow at three which means I will be worrying until then.  Supposedly the drugs are the best things in the world, but it still makes me uneasy.  I guess I will finally have my answers though which is what I have to keep reminding myself.  I'm still on the clear liquid diet, but he discouraged me to have the watermelon Italian ice so it looks as if it will be chicken broth for me.

I'm also going to be getting an ultrasound sometime tonight to make sure the blood clot has not changed at all.  The plus about the ultrasound though is I know what to expect, the other procedure, not so much.

OH!! One of the best things since this morning is I am able to walk about, Dr. I actually encouraged it.  However, he told me the bad news that I will have to get the belly shots again to pick up my INR numbers which I do not look forward to at all.  But that's a small price to pay to get out to Washington this summer.  And most importantly be able to eat whatever I want.

No more shots!
No more shots!
NO MORE SHOTS!!!!!

Such amazing news to wake up to on a Friday morning.  My stomach shots are DONE and I could not be happier.

My foot is the size of a club and looks as if I have spent tons of time hanging out with Fred Flinstone.  I hate it, but I mean I can't dwell on it.

I can not WAIT for the day I can walk without pain, and when I can eat and not hurt, which is hopefully right around the corner. Cross your fingers people, big doings are happening.

Ouchies

Tonight we tried a new spot for the shot. A little below my belly button. Previous to tonight we had been alternating sides for the shots. I have this one particular huge spot that may look like a freckle to some but it's the one shot spot that I bled after the injection was given. It's scary looking and so I told my dad tonight that I didn't want to go near that because it is scary looking blood spot thing.  WELP, I wish I hadn't been stubborn and went there instead.  This under the belly button thing hurts like a mother now and I want the pain to go away.

Tomorrow the blood results come back and I'm crossing my fingers and toes that they say I don't need these shots anymore.  I don't like making my dad feel bad with my faces or cries when it hurts.  I know he takes it personally because he has to give me the shots but honestly, its nothing against him but the fact that the pain happens cause he has to give them to me.

On another note, my leg is kinda hurting today.  Not sure if it's because I didn't elevate it all last night or if it's because I'm trying to keep it straight and did a lot with it yesterday but it is kind of hurting today. Boooo to pain