A Quick Review on Life

Aside from the creepy two lined entry the other day, I haven't really shared all the amazing things that have been happening/fun adventures I have been on.

First and foremost, I have become a hiker.  Yes, I go hiking at least once a week now and if I don't, I feel like I am miss out completely.  My group of friends like to go on the weekends and sometimes I have to miss out (which makes me really really bummed) but then there are times that we all go and there is normally a lot of laughs and fun times.  I have even gone on some of the harder trails and survived! And ran into a snake and didn't scream or run crying.

Next, I passed the national pharmacy test which basically means I'm getting a raise and promotion at work.  The promotion has been a long time coming because I have basically been doing everything that the job entails for months now.  But whatever, I passed a test I was terrified I was not going to pass.  And I couldn't be more excited or proud.

Now for the part that most people probably come here to read about.  I believe I'm having another flare up which has not been a walk in the park.  Let me tell you, being miserable and wanting to cry all the time?  Not a fun experience let me tell you.  It all began on Saturday really when it truly did suck being at a picnic and having to run away every hour and half basically.  That's the first breakdown during this flare up.  I have been trying to muscle my way through it as strong as I can but this whole colitis thing makes me doubt that sometimes because it truly does kick you on your ass.  It's hard trying to tell someone who doesn't have it what you experience.  A pain in the stomach, pain in my back, wanting to cry all the time and not wanting to stand for long periods of time.  It really is the most awful thing a person can imagine.

On top of all this, I haven't really been eating.  I've become scared once again that whatever I eat will cause me pain so I don't eat large meals anymore.  And when I do eat, I do become uncomfortable.  So on top of not feeling well because of the colitis, I am weak because I'm not eating and that is never a good thing.  I just had one of the first meals in a while, plus a milkshake.  Lemme tell you it was heavenly.  Here's to hoping no pain comes.

So that's life.  I gotta take some tests in order to see if this is a flare up or if it's just an infection or stomach bug.  Such an exciting little life I lead....