Due to the fact that I was supposed to go to their show tonight, I decided to share one of my favorite songs by Third Eye Blind.  I don't know why I love this song but it's always been one of my favorites.  In fact, I didn't realize until I was searching youtube how many of their songs I do enjoy.  I think they are one of those bands that you love all their songs but don't realize that they are the ones who sing them.  You know those bands, when you listen to the song and find out who sings it and there is the dawning of "Noooo wayyyy".

Okay, so now that that rambling is out of the way, I wanted to share about my favorite movie.  I know some people will probably roll their eyes at the connections I made to my own life, but please bare with me.  50/50 is an amazing movie.  Okay, maybe not win tons of awards amazing, but the actors are able to show the terrifying journey of getting bad medical news at such a young age.  As I was watching the movie, and Adam, the main character finds out about his cancer I couldn't help but echo his questioning his diagnosis because of his age.  Why me, I'm too young to have cancer.  Those were exactly the words I have thought over and over again this past year....especially when I was barely able to walk.

I cried during the movie.  Little old emotional me cried during the movie when he was in the hospital and breaking down to his mother.  Throughout the whole movie, Adam put up such a strong front to everyone he cared about.  He didn't want them to see him vulnerable.  I could not help but realize this is exactly what I have been doing.  This is the reason why I ended up in the hospital back in April or May, I can't remember which month.  I don't want to be a burden on those who I love, but at the same time when crunch time comes, we can't help but break down and let people in.  This is exactly what happened with Adam, at the most crucial moment in his medical journey, he reached out for reassurance from his mother.

I would really recommend seeing this movie.  I went with my mother on Friday and am so happy that I did go see it.