A New Normal

I have been thinking a lot about this blog.  About the title of it. About the description of it.  And why I began this blog in the first place.

When I started this in 2010, I didn't want the repeated answers of family and friends questions about my condition.  My blog was a way for me to share all my medical problems and vent with all the problems I faced at such a young age.  For most of my blog, I was questioning what I was going through and why it took forever for me to be diagnosed with colitisis.

As the years went on, I embarked on my new normal.  This included taking medications daily instead of being the "healthy" girl who only took medication during headaches.  It was regular blood work and being on a first name basis with most of my doctors and the people in their office.  This also included the highs and lows of having this disease that many people are not able to see.

Since May, I have another new normal that I have been trying to navigate.  The new normal of not having my dad around.  Most times I fail at the attempt of surviving the world without my dad.  Sometimes I believe he is looking down on me and smiling at the woman that I am.  But other times, I fear that I'm not being strong enough to make him proud.  Silly, I know because my dad was proud of everything I do.  But he was always my biggest cheerleader and I want to make him proud of the woman that I am and how hard I am trying to float in this new normal.

I'm sure this all doesn't make sense.  Dad used to joke with me that most of my posts were just rambling about a whole lot of nothing.  But I haven't changed how it has always been.

If you are willing, I'm still navigating through this New Normal of mine and I plan on documenting that journey a little better.  I hope you will join me in this crazy ride and see the life I want to lead that will make my father happy.